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Nicole & Piawrote:
Congrats on your loses this week girls. You are both rocking it and doing an awesome job!!! Keep it up and can't wait to see you shrink as you continue your journey.
Nicole
Feb. 12
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Nicole & Piawrote:
You girls are still doing an awesome job!! I know life can get in the way and the devil has ways of making us feel inferior and wanting to keep us as failures in this weight loss...but you can both do it, and don't get discouraged and don't give up. I am pulling for both of you. Keep on keeping on!!
Nicole
Jan. 31
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In our fight against fat, hear our battle cry...
 KEEP GOING and don't forget to breathe
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Things We've Learned on our Journeys to Health:
When life allows us to see our triumphs that are unrelated to the number on the scale. Non-Scale Victories!
March 06 Needed BreakWell, on my way to work this morning I made a decision - I’m taking the next 6 weeks off.
Ok, before you get nervous, let me explain. ;) I’m taking the next 6 weeks off from counting. I am taking the next 6 weeks off the Bootcamp challenge. I will still post to my team, but I am not going to worry about tracking points or tracking all the stuff for the challenge. I am not going to count calories, count steps, count ANYTHING. I am taking a break. And I am not going to be putting so much attention on my weight. That being said, I will be taking the next 6 weeks to refocus. I will concentrate on beginning to make healthier eating choices again. I will concentrate on letting my ankle heal and getting back into a good exercise routine and training for the upcoming events. I am hoping in the process that the weight will go back down, but that is not going to be my priority. I talked to a friend last night. It was a good conversation with her last night and I am so glad she called. She commented on the fact that even with the way the past few weeks have gone, I’ve still been successful. She didn’t know me two years ago, but based on things I’ve said, she realized that even though I am not making the healthiest eating choices right now, I am not stuffing the emotions down with food like I used to. I am more aware of the emotions than I used to be. I am working on getting through the emotions and all the struggles, not burying them with food. We talked about the ‘I don’t care’ attitude that I have been fighting lately. Its not that I don’t care or even that I don’t want to care so much as it is an ‘I can’t care’. She commented that I’ve added a lot to my plate with school…and my mind is tired. Its not that I don’t care about the healthy lifestyle or some of these other things, but mentally I can’t focus on those things right now like I want to…and it comes across as an ‘I don’t care’ attitude. So, that is what I am planning on doing. I want to get back to enjoying exercise, enjoying eating right, enjoying being healthy...without the stress of feeling like I have to be perfect with it all, without the stress of constantly counting everything. Jen March 03 Response to KellyKelly,
I am sorry I haven’t been here for you lately…I’ve been so wrapped up in the mental battle that I have been facing.
How are things going this week? I do understand where you are at. I’ve been there myself a lot the past few weeks.
Let’s find a way to help each other out of this funk we are in. Together I know we can do it! More UpdatesWow, its been a long past few weeks. I haven't struggled this much with food or emotions in quite some time!!
I haven’t been reacting very well to anything lately. I know part of it is the pain I have been in. My neck is tight and sore and causing a headache / stomach ache. I did break down and make an appt with the chiro tomorrow.
But I am determined to pull out of this. And I am determined to start making healthy choices again, regardless of the mental battle that is raging. My health is too important not to make those choices. I did get on the treadmill for a little bit today. Ankle felt pretty good – unfortunately the head and stomach didn’t like me getting on there. Will try again tomorrow… Jen
February 29 Me too, JenJen, I completely understand not wanting to post. I have been avoiding it. I havent posted to Michael over on the BLC site. I havent posted here, And, I havent spoken to you enough. I have not been doing anything right. Last week I barely exercised, drank way too much Diet Coke and way too little water, and ate poorly too. I cannot even tell you why. I do not know if I can even promise that I will be back on track tomorrow. I have a million excuses for being off track, and just as many reasons why I should get more serious, but I have very little desire right now. My only real motivation that I can find right now is the Muddy Buddy. I dont want to disappoint you, Heather and Debbie, so I know I have to start training. I guess if that is the only real motivation I have right now I will have to make it work. Right? Kelly February 26 Updates from the Past Few DaysI really don't even want to post in here as I know this past week has been bad. Not sure what my deal is right now... But, here are some posts that I have made the past few days on the BLC site:
February 22 11:30 pm
you’ll be proud of me. Had a pumpkin pie in my freezer that has been talking to me the past few days, “Cook me, eat me, you want me!!!” I just threw it into the garbage… And filled in the empty space in the freezer with veggies, fruit and healthy choice meals for when I am stressed and don’t want to cook anything. I did buy some of those steam bags that Jillian used on the show the other night…and some fresh veggies to go in them. Will try it out and see how I like it. Might also help with those days when I don’t have time to cook a long meal. I did stay away from the chocolate today…We ordered Panera, but I had 1/2 a salad and soup. I am still light on calories today, so will get a light snack in before bed. Soccer was fun. We got creamed, but I played approx 45 of the 50 minutes as we were short a girl. I took a pretty rough tumble at one point (onto the left shoulder) and had a hard time getting up. Took me a second to get my balance and get going again, but I did. Then I tripped over one of the other team’s guys and almost fell, but he caught me and kept me upright. Very thankful for that one! They were a good team, and fun to play. I did rush on a few of the guys and manage to steal the ball a time or two. Bet I will feel this game tomorrow! My ankle is a little sore and my left shoulder, but nothing a few motrin won’t cure! ;) Unfortunately it is the ankle I sprained last August. I don’t remember twisting it tonight…but I did forget to put on the ankle brace. Will see how it feels in the morning (and how the rest of my body feels) before I decide what kind of exercise to get in tomorrow. February 24 7:40 pm
Well, here I sit...again. Didn't do much of anything today. Sore muscles, tired, feeling lazy. Felt good to just relax. Took the time to read for enjoyment (in between reading for school and doing other school work.) Haven't done that for some time! Love to read, so really enjoyed today. Its so easy to get lost in the books and forget about real life for a while.
Speaking of real life. Eating is off again today. Been sitting here trying to figure out why I am struggling so much right now. And I keep coming back to being so close to goal. I know TOM is playing a part in it, too...but its more than that. My mom sent me home with some food yesterday that I shouldn't have taken...I ate some of it before finally getting frustrated enough and throwing it out. Wish I had done that sooner. The thing is, I know better. I know how to curb the emotional eating. I know how to say NO to it. I know that this is about health. I know all of these things, yet I keep going after the junk food lately. One of my bootcamp teammates called me today. She said something that got me thinking. She said she is so used to calling herself a failure and saying that she'll never meet her goals that when she does get close to finishing one she sabotages herself... like a self-fulfilling prophecy. One of my other bootcamp teammates said, “I wonder if you feel like you need to be fixing yourself all the time or something is wrong. If you are at goal weight, there is nothing left to fix, maybe in your mind if you are at goal, then you don’t need us? Or you don’t need BLC? (even though you still do) But maybe you would feel guilt because you have attained what we all want and why should you be still on here with us if you are at goal, you cannot relate anymore?” I don’t know…maybe there is some truth to what they have both said. Still thinking on it. Especially the feeling like a failure and then self-sabotaging when getting close to goal and the need to be ‘fixing’ myself all of the time… I don’t think it is the thought that I don’t need BLC anymore, cuz from where I am sitting I know I do… But maybe I am afraid that others will think I don’t need the support and help anymore and will walk away? Goes back to the fear of rejection. I don’t know. Maybe its just a 'need' for attention. If I am struggling, I get more attention, if things are going well and life is good sometimes I feel invisible. Now that's an interesting thought. Don't know if I've ever thought about that one before...or at least had the guts to write it down. All I know is right now I don’t have any real junk food in my house…so as long as I can keep portions under control tomorrow I should be ok. ;) February 24 11:16 pm I posted the paragraph above on the 'need' for attention to my bootcamp team... |
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